FUCKING LIFE

What irritates me the most in the whole fucking world are my siblings! I don’t want to be offensive but that’s the truth. Well they are not really those irksome ones but still they are. No, they don’t pull my ears or tease me but they do PULL MY LEG! They always make fun of my choices and always question my future. Now you must be thinking that I’m just faking it all and they must be really cool, and I just take their jokes super seriously, but really, that’s not the thing. I can prove myself.

My Brother:

Piyush Jain, he’s 10 years older than me, and the eldest one amongst us siblings. In his time, students used to have Boards in 10^th standard too but now as you know we don’t. So in 10^th, my brother did really bad in his exams and got a lot of scolding from dad. It was really a hard day for him. He cried the whole day. After that day, I don’t know what got into him, he started studying for hours. He used to lock himself in the study room, and would just study for hours. In his last year of school, he stood FIRST! He proved my dad wrong. 

Well now you must be thinking that’s what bad in that? OK, let me tell you, my brother came first, that’s what the problem is! Well, he came first and I’ll never will and that is the biggest problem. My dad and mom too, always keep comparing me with my brother. I can’t be like him, because I’m not good at Mathematics like him. Not even other subjects. I’m good at over acting as he says.

My Sister:

Now what to say about her, she is as good as my bro. Sakshi Jain was the House Captain in school, and yeah she came first in 11^th and 12^th standard, in each term. What else shall I say?

So this is my problem. My siblings are just undefeatable and my parents always keep comparing me with them. I don’t like this at all; I don’t want to be like them. I don’t want to be another geek in the family and seriously I’m not at all interested in Mathematics or Chemistry or those geeky subjects. I like to write and that’s it. I want to be an editor, and mom wants me to take only Science stream. I don’t even have a choice. 

When I tell my family about my future plans, they take me as a joke. It’s so humiliating. They taunt me because I’m not good at Mathematics. When I don’t study, they have got problem, and when I do study they start taunting me. My life is a living hell. I don’t know what to do. Now that they taunt me too much, and always make fun of me, and definitely don’t support me, I don’t know what to take in the future, I don’t know what to do with my life.

This is me, Twinkle Jain, a 15 year old, who can’t even consult her family about her future.